Aloneaphobe

by Steven Mark

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1.
Window In The Dark 03:13
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You You don’t own me You can stone me Dethrone me And bone me Just don’t over phone me You You can take me You can fake me And shake me Forsake me But you’ll never break me Now you don’t owe them anything By a window in the dark you’ll sing Spinning pavement soldiering Feel no more Feel no more You You demand me You command me Grandstand me Backhand me, never understand me Now you don’t owe them anything By a window in the dark you’ll sing Spinning pavement soldiering Feel no more Feel no more Faster and faster Heart’s racing faster Will you make it home Closer and closer Ground’s growing closer Now a soul can roam Now a soul can roam You, use the name Lies you claim Cast the blame With disdain Play the game We’re the same Now you don’t owe them anything By a window in the dark you’ll sing Spinning pavement soldiering Feel no more Feel no more Feel no more
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Lazy Sunday Afternoon 04:05
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Are we lost Or are we living frightened Fading clinging to a friend What’s the cost Two souls love more enlightened A sequel playing out again No more aching need to swoon A lazy Sunday afternoon Don’t go away I bleed you stay Looking back We hide behind familiar Sweet dysfunction won’t let go Questions asked Procrastinate the answer Hurt the devil that you know No more aching need to swoon A lazy Sunday afternoon Don’t go away I bleed you stay Now and then you fall apart A new charade not playing smart Standing paralyzed, no words too strong to leave Together now believe Run away And close your eyes forever Tears can’t fight the great divide Every day just leads to now or never Seems we’re on the other’s side No more aching need to swoon A lazy Sunday afternoon Don’t go away I bleed you stay I bleed you stay I bleed you stay I bleed you stay
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Weak 04:18
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Who am I to judge you Your life she sits with you somehow Who am I to crush you Who gets to play the wicked son right now And so A weak man runs away A brother you betray But that’s just your way Who am I to love you Don’t have enough to give myself Who am I to touch you Too many feelings for my health And so A weak man runs away A lover you betray But that’s just your way Just your way Fear and guilt will rope you in Erasing memories of splendor Seeking more you cannot win Embrace the bittersweet surrender Who am I to leave you The only thing that I do well Early words decieved you I’ll see you later in my own private hell And so A weak man runs away Another you betray But that’s just your way Just your way Just your way Just your way
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Yesterday's Smile 03:20
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Long ago Can you remember A fire burned inside the eyes Now you know In years September A woman spurned benign disguise Followed every rule And now subconscious is all knowing Drop the babes at school And then you don’t know where you’re going Gardens made of cartoons But the flower’s never growing Come now and find Yesterday’s smile There’s a girl Inside the mother Dying under tv light A silent pearl Unlike no other Lying naked is the night Followed every rule And now subconscious is all knowing Drop the babes at school And then you don’t know where you’re going Gardens made of cartoons But the flower’s never growing Come now and find Yesterday’s smile Stop Look around Not a sound To the life you’re living You Can’t be found Underground Someone needs forgiving Followed every rule And now subconscious is all knowing Drop the babes at school And then you don’t know where you’re going Gardens made of cartoons But the flower’s never growing Come now and find Yesterday’s smile Long ago Can you remember A fire burned inside the eyes Now you know In years September A woman spurned Benign disguise
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A Ballad For Now 03:50
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So what’s exactly on your mind Something tells me you know where we’re going Silence says your thoughts may be unkind Nothing seems like something we are doing Time to listen time to feel And time to wait it out Time to sweat and time to heal and Learn what you’re about Shall we tape record this one Or will we lose this moment here in time Strangled by a fear of hope that burned Can’t you hear a braver path is calling Turn your back on lessons you have learned Adrenaline she rushes when you’re falling Time to listen time to feel And time to wait it out Time to sweat and Time to heal and Learn what you’re about Shall we tape record this one Or will we lose this moment here in time All disappointment you’re suspecting Could be the one thing worth neglecting You never know what you’re expecting Until there’s no way out So have you now made up your mind Only for today don’t think tomorrow Is it time to leave it all behind Don’t forget all wisdom’s born of sorrow Time to listen time to feel And time to wait it out Time to sweat and time to heal and Learn what you’re about Shall we tape record this one Or will we lose this moment here in time Will we lose this moment here in time Will we lose this moment here in time
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Don't Cross Lake Avenue 03:29
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There was no contract We made no promises Jabs that make contact Ignite a goodbye kiss So don’t cross Lake Avenue Don’t cross Lake Avenue You were a father You were the voice of can Now ask why I bother Can’t cut through a blunt tight man So don’t cross Lake Avenue Stranger than true I do believe the beat inside The me in you, you can’t deceive The spiral slide But look who’s dead in quicksand now Look who’s dead in quicksand now You wish to be closer Missing the golden years No can do no sir Go choke on your type A tears But don’t cross Lake Avenue Don’t cross Lake Avenue Don’t cross Lake Avenue
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Ditsy Genius 03:52
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Lost fallen bird You don’t have to play the victim I’ll sit here awhile State your case Nightmares too absurd Have become the grand addiction Go reclaim your style Princess Grace And so she rolls the lonely ditsy genius And so she flows the only ditsy genius Sad toothless girl You can come out from the closet Go and play outside Daddy’s gone Mad ruthless world All the anger you deposit Heaven lays beside A new dawn And so she rolls the lonely ditsy genius And so she flows the only ditsy genius And now all play the game as one A vow today has come undone Slow down all thoughts and you will see Beyond the fence you wish to be Sweet singing lamb You wander all alone now Do I detect indifference in your tone Silent stinging ram You squandered ring of stone now Could it be it’s you who’s moved on And so she rolls the lonely ditsy genius And so she flows the only ditsy genius And so she rolls the lonely ditsy genius And so she flows the only ditsy genius
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Homespun Vanilla Pie 03:23
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You deserve a song For all the crap you gave me How’d we last that long Your only purpose was to save me Dragged me to the hall Hooked me with your drama Stripped me to the mall You sorry little mama Now I don’t understand it Your homespun vanilla pie So you’ve grown disenchanted Kiss one more sweet goodbye You deserve a verse For all the lies you sold me Judging risk averse Your gates will never hold me Mold me as your clone Suburban destination Call when I’m not home Avoiding confrontation Now I don’t understand it Your homespun vanilla pie Cuz you’ve grown disenchanted Kiss one more sweet goodbye And you don’t hear a word I’m saying You only see who was before And you don’t catch the vibe I’m playing I just can’t stay your course anymore Can’t stay here anymore Can’t stay here anymore You deserve some words Your class of inspiration Traveling in herds To useless observations And you the chosen tribe You say our kind is shrinking But interfaith’s alive Your story needs rethinking Now I don’t understand it Your homespun vanilla pie Cuz you’ve grown disenchanted With homespun vanilla pie
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Fairmaiden 03:32
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Maiden My Fairmaiden Softly sleeping after weeping In the dark Maiden My Sweet maiden Skipping dreaming finding meaning In the park And I close my eyes And I open up my hand Watch the lion slowly rise This ram will understand Angel Drifting angel Falling floating laughing growing Growing strong Angel Fallen angel Fearing dancing risking chancing You belong And I close my eyes And I open up my heart Hold the lion as she cries This ram will never part Princess Elfin princess Softly breathing smiling seething Feeling fine Princess Long haired princess Back needs scratching found her matching Fire sign And I close my eyes And I open up my soul Cheer the lion as she flies This ram becoming whole This lamb becoming whole
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Narcissus 04:51
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Once there was a newborn prince Who bathed in vats of riches All the town was his to burn And all the land a playground And on the day they brought him home They held him to the mirror And he saw his own reflection And he fell into his eyes And at that very moment He made himself a promise That others came beneath the one And that he belonged to him Unaware You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low Little man You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low So he set out for the forest Where he read a book from time to time And he laughed at all the scholars And he bathed himself in fancy wine And he played with shapely bodies And he played with docile minds And he played with crystal clarity All others step aside And he woke with many lovers And he woke with fewer loves Till came home to his mirror To his only one true love Unaware You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low Little man You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low And it’s not so unreal That they’ll take it away Take it away Is it too late to feel Please don’t take it away Take it all away And so the prince he journeyed on From conquest on to conflict His hair grew thin His face grew long Still never making contact Until the day returning home He stood before his mirror And he saw his own reflection And he fell into his eyes And he questioned all he lived for And he questioned other ways And he shattered lies his mirror told With fists of grand malaise Unaware You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low Little man You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low Not a word You’re living solo You’re living solo Oh, so low
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You've Seen It All 02:47
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Sitting waiting Daylight breaking I see you But can you feel me You’ve been here Through years Debating Wish you’d speak And tell me what to be You’ve seen it all Yes, you’ve seen it all When we met We both were infants Too afraid To leave the home Came and went With lasting imprints You have stayed ‘Cause simply we are one You’ve seen it all Yes you’ve seen it all When you’re not around Who will understand And who will be laying By my side And when they put you down I will take command Staying with you Right by your side By your side Sitting waiting Daylight breaking You see me But can I feel you So alike Too loves awaking Does it matter Who has rescued who You’ve seen it all Yes you’ve seen it all You’ve seen it all
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But If You Look To The Right 03:27
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Look to the left Could it be a new toy to play with Or could it be someone Look to the right A pull too strong To do away with Forever on the run Forever on the run And now somebody’s got to get burned Somebody’s got to get burned Somebody’s got to get burned Into another you will turn The road ahead Is paved with memories From another A ballad dies too soon The road behind Idealized But still you wonder Your ever changing tune And now somebody’s got to get burned Somebody’s got to get burned Somebody’s got to get burned Into another you will turn And I know that it’s you We need to have a talking to And you know your name And you know that it’s true There’s always someone else who’s new And it’s all the same Look to the left The dancing gypsy Stakes her claim Her lifeboat from above Look to the right Slumping defeated Who’s to blame Eternal Sunshine love Eternal Sunshine love And now somebody’s got to get burned Somebody’s got to get burned Somebody’s got to get burned Into another you will turn
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Nobody's Home 04:26
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Lights went down on ourselves And now we atone Only wounds in common Together alone Thirsting for past connection And she don’t care And for a brief moment I could see stars I could see stars The battle along the Seine Took both of our lives Missing Amsterdam We sharpened our knives Feasting on cordial anger And pulling out hair And for a brief moment I could see stars I could see stars You think you’re living large Exactly as you should Still hidden in the dark Polishing the wood You never gave yourself A chance for alderon. Forgiveness broke in half Is this the path you’re on So I knock but there’s nobody home And I knock but there’s nobody home On top of the world a stage Band aid removed Electrified silent rage Drowns out a sweet groove Boredom without the license Driving nowhere And for a brief moment I could see stars We could see stars A dance of tribal words Will cause a thunderstorm Dead are the songs of birds Your body now luke warm You thought that life Was just a park bench in the sky Now you see inside The darkness asking why So I knock but there’s nobody home And I knock but there’s nobody home Nobody home Nobody home Nobody home Nobody home
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In From The Rain 03:12
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You will laugh When the feeling’s right You will grow muscle overnight You can whine you can shine Nothing doing You can cry Into your morning cup And wish some nights you won’t wake up You can grow Not a soul worth pursuing And so that’s how you came in from the rain And so that’s how you came in from the rain Make amends With where you placed your trust Make new friends online addictive lust Play it through Within you hear the answer And so that’s how you came in from the rain And so that’s how you came in from the rain Do you dream at night And have you wrestled thoughts of wonder Will you still dance inside my mind Ease the pain Tasty sweet delight The sacred scent of lasting thunder Pandora’s box cannot rewind Then you crawl out from Your winter cave Realize you took more than you gave You can learn you can turn Daily trial Till you land beside A song and then You swear it won’t be you again You recall What was all in denial And so that’s how you came in from the rain And so that’s how you came in from the rain

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My "breakup album." All of the songs are about relationships, romantic and familial.

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released June 17, 2005

Written by: Steven Mark Doppelt
Produced by: Matt Wilcox

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Steven Mark New York, New York

Blending poetic introspective lyrics, with layered instrumentations and lush vocal harmonies, Steven Mark’s songs explore themes of isolation, mortality, regret, redemption, All set to melodies that go straight to the heart and stay inside your head.

After releasing four albums in six years, Steven Mark took a hiatus He’s now making a return to music with his new release, The Long Goodbye, ... more

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